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breaking open.

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you made me want to break open like an eggshell over concrete: a messy affair, no clean edges or neat corners.
you made me want to fall in rough zig-zag chalklines like we drew when we were young and fresh-flesh and unbroken. when life was yet untested waters and we were the new leather of of gloves over eager fingers.
you made me feel dirty like the red-blood-oklahoma dirt that clung like piss to our skin and under our tired-grit-eyed lids and beneath the hairline of our unshowered heads.

invasive, like a contagion; a wildfire in my limbs.
my own revulsion:
a knee-jerk reaction set to keep forever reliving the day i let you set the course for the empty air above the seductive gleam of a lake.

i wanted to inhale you like smoke into my polluted lungs, so that maybe as you dragged yourself back up my throat in jagged coughs, maybe you'd understand just a little the insides of me.
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the truth is,
i started carving gills in my skin
so when his hands come for me like a tape set on replay,
i wouldn't drown in my selfhate.
shaking fingers spilling truths dressed up like pretty little knives;
speaking all the brackish tar polluting my thoughts
and clogging my guts
and pounding for release in the tips of my fingers
and behind your jail-bar teeth.
my drive-thru thoughts pull of my head, never staying long enough to resurrect buried memories. i've lost myself in the bleeding ink in my head, locked behind the walls of my own misery.
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Azza-Magena's avatar
raw and sincere. beautiful. and even more beautiful because i can relate.